God damn

It has been an awful day

Have you ever been in a cyber relationship with someone? I did. It has been nearly ten years ago.

We knew each other in a chatroom. Then we kept on chatting in the internet. Maybe we were still single at that time and haven't been in love before, we were both long for love. We started sweet talking later on and we became cyber lovers.

First we just chatted something about sex. Later on, we had cyber sex. Then, we became more and more serious gradually and we exchanged our phone number. We began to have phone sex.

I didn't enjoy phone sex indeed. It's not real. All depends on your imagination. It's very hard for a virgin to enjoy from such activity.

Anyway, this relationship ended up a year later. A few years later, we were both heartbroken because we broke up with our lovers. We finally met. I stayed in his apartment for two nights. We slept on the same bed. He kissed me, touched me.. and wanna had sex with me. However, I refused. Though I really felt lonely and needed someone to love, his heart didn't belong to me. He held me in his arm but he was thinking about his ex-g/f.

Does anyone share the same experience? What do you think about cyber love?

I dreamt of him again last night.